Saturday, October 18, 2008

Don't should all over yourself!

Have you ever felt used? I've been dealing with feeling that way lately. I guess giving and giving with nothing in return gets old. I have no problem setting boundaries with any other people except my girls. The whole MOM thing clouds my judgement. Might be fueled with guilt too. Where to draw the line? When to cross the line? Oh what to do? 

How do I live a full life when all of hell is coming against me? I know the joy of the Lord is my strength....etc.... Don't get me wrong, I truly believe God is in control, but still doesn't mean I don't think life sucks. Somedays I want to haul my booty to another place. What would that place be like? hmmmmm  

My Place
Calm. Clean, with NO clutter...( I see you laughing) laughter, nature, love, peace, rest, assurance, a spa, art supplies, (man, I'm getting sleepy..LOL) all the mochas I want, music, a good book, craft magazines, ........

I feel better just dreaming about the place. 

God, why do I get so worked up? Why do I allow my heart to dictate my life most of the time? Help me to learn to put me first sometimes without the horrible feeling of guilt. As Amy Spencer told me once, "Don't should all over yourself." That should be my life's a motto. :)

2 comments:

robbieniccum said...

OH THANK YOU GIRLFRIEND! I might get that stenciled on my wall!

Moms Gone Godly said...

I am so sorry that you are going throught so many hard times. I don't think you should feel guilty for "putting your foot down". My mom always told me I would never understand what she was going through until I went through it with my own kids, and that is so true!

I love the quote and your place of peace. I get the feeling of being used at times too. Sometimes I even feel like the hired maid:) But remember what you always tell us, "don't be so hard on yourself."
And I remind myself of that daily:)